"What would you say if I took those words away? Then you couldn't make things new just by saying 'I Love You.'"
I really love this song. It is still hard to listen to; the pain is strong when I hear it and probably won't ever heal , but I listen to it when it comes on anyway. It has a good message and I love to hear it. I was just watching "Rock of Ages" and this song is featured in it, so I thought I would pause to share my thoughts on this, as they were revealed to me.
I loved a woman once, and it didn't work out. She and I went different ways and that is that. We are both better for it. This was the song we called "our song" and it is inexorably tied to her, whether I want it to or not. It is likely she thinks of me when she hears it, and I hope it is with a smile. Maybe someday I will deal with this 100%, but I am not ready and I don't see that happening for awhile.
Two things are important about this time I heard it, though.
- I am over the pain enough that I can listen to the song and not get upset. I can just love the song again and remember what love feels like.
- I don't actually care of she knows how I feel about it anymore. I don't hate her and I don't bear her malice. I am just healing and that feels good.
- I strongly believe you should never let pain stop you from experiencing what you love. And I love this song and this band.
Yep. That was 3 things. Sue me.
Enjoy it. I'll be in my bunk.